making-up is hard to do…
Today, I started with eyeliner.
I’ve never been the type to wear make-up on the daily basis for various reasons… 1) I’m too lazy 2) I really don’t know what I’m doing and 3) I’m just too lazy. Don’t get me wrong, I can doll up when needed, but it’s usually a special occasion (my birthday, new year’s, picture taking lol).
In recent mornings, I’ve found myself looking in the mirror before I leave for work and thinking “Damn, I should put on some makeup” or “Where the FUCK did these dark circles come from? I should use some concealer” when I never really felt the need before. Maybe the creeping up of my “late twenties” is playing mind games with me. Maybe I’m sick of looking 18 all of the time. Maybe it’s time for me to look my age?
So, the personal struggle really comes with this thought – Do I feel the need to wear make-up to conform and fit in with “the man’s” definition of beauty, or do I simply want to do it to look my best and feel good about myself? Or are they one in the same?
So today I started with eyeliner. No powder, now foundation, no blush… and considering the closest I get to make-up daily is putting on some Burt’s Bees Honey Lip Balm, this is a nice little baby step. We’ll see if it sticks.
p.s. i have tendency to rub my eyes a lot. so if you see me walkin’ round looking crazy with raccoon eyes, please flag me down. thanks.